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when I give you the biggest smile,

don't you know I'm covering my tears.

when I throw you the silliest joke,

don't you know I'm holding all the pain inside.

when I stand up so strong in front of you,

don't you know I'm out of strength.

when I answer all your questions calmly,

don't you know I'm crumbling inside.

again, you ask the same questions.

again, I uphold my self hardly.

again, I become that brittle little girl.

do you even realized, your questions slowly killing me.

do you even notice, your questions seems to doubt me.

do you even know, your doubt slowly drown me to the deepest.

Say no to grudges!!

Some said, it's my stages of losing.

But, for me, it's not!

It's my stages of not-letting-any-grudge-to-stay.

Am not losing

for I don't have anything.

Am just staying out of any grudge.

For whatever you've done..

promise you, I'll forgive one day.

But can't promise you that I'll forget.

You were part of my inner circle.

But now, for me, you're just bunch of people,

whom I don't even recognize.

It might be so damn harsh.

But no way on earth,

I repeat the same stupid.

I put no care for whatever you think.

the late "bla bla bla"

I just start it.

Actually, I haven't fully start it.

I did try to let you know what I'd do.

I did try to make you notice.

You did ignore me, don't you?

So I did what I'd do

When you finally notice, suddenly you came out of nowhere

Probably from your gold cage

You start to babbling "bla bla bla"

"Don't do bla bla bla"

Yes! You keep on shouting "bla bla bla" on me

Let me tell you something..

"D'oh,where have you been??

Chirping me around with your bla bla bla thingy,now??

YOU'RE LATE!!"

the TRUTH the REAL the WHAT SO EVER...

I thought of a hurt.

but never thought it would be this hard.

I thought of a disappointment.

but never thought it would be this big.

thanks for the hurt,

for I learn from you, the best in hurting other.

thanks for being coward,

for I learn that you're nothing, but a jerk.

thanks for being selfish,

for I learn who's the real blood.

thanks for leaving me alone, blank

for I learn that I have the best people around.

the best bond even without blood

 

for real, I'm not an angel

but I don't have the heart to do what you did to me.

for real, I'm not a great person

but I used to face what i did, rather than run away.

for real, I'm not a holy person

but I try my best to be honest, rather than hide it.

not even your great title can guarantee your good attitude.

not even the blood between can guarantee that you won't hurt me.

 

I wish you're brave enough

to just face me and tell me all

yet, you're not!

you run, you leave me alone

unlike you, I don't push people until they fall and run

I choose to give my hand to help them to get up

because no one ever taught me to be a chicken