I didn't want to blame God but I thought with just a snap of His finger He can fast forward the time and erase what I felt inside miraculously, but He didn't do that. I am upset, but I can't be far from God because I am so scared, so down. Worse, I felt worthless. He is the only one that I could run to. And deep down I know I still trust Him so much. This is a matter of me surrendering my heart to Him. Trusting bits and pieces of me to Him. Trust that He's working to give me peace and comfort.
It feels so unbearable now that I wish the wind can just blew out time. Fast. :'(

Promise.

To fall in love with you was easy
The charm, the kind, the smile
But nobody even try to warn
To watch you walk away will be tough
Now that I've fall for you, for so long
The bits and pieces come to one point
Where I have to pick it all by myself
To live with the consequences will be hard
I have to wipe you from me
Simply because you were never meant to be fall for
Simply because I know it will hurt deeper than I fall
Simply because you're only a day dream
How am I supposed to carry on
When you've been my surrounding
stucked in my days, stuffed in my head
If I have to drain the last pieces to look strong the day you're gone, I will do it
I promise the day you're gone will be the last day I'm in love with you
Promise.