She impossibly hate you

She told you her scariest secret,
she adores you.
You treated her right, at the time when she even doubt herself
Despite how tough she can be sometimes
Despite how defensive she can be most of the times
Despite how she put no room for being vulnerable all the time

You came, you tirelessly remind her how she isn't nothing
You protect her and scold anyone who forget that she's still human after all.
You left too many kind things that she didn't even know if she deserve those
You touched her heart so much that she will forever thank you.

She already prepared for the worst.
On the edge between keeping everything as it is or kicking everything out,
You choose the first and you proved her wrong.
Nothing change. Not as dramatic as she thought before.
Then how could she hate you even for saying no?
She couldn’t and she wouldn’t.
She impossibly hate you.
She'll  always root for you. From afar. No matter what.
You are forever special for her.

She breaks, hard

There goes her heart awake from false words she kept on hearing.
There goes her mind walk away from the chaos that wore her down.
Here goes her final words over every things, lately.
She didn't give up. In fact she's done. Until the finish line.
Too many reasons for her not to do the same dance all over again. More than the fight to just keep it down.
Because she knew, she barely had the chance to go anywhere.
Because she knew empty battle just won't do, where no one have the slightest thought to fight with her.
No matter what she did and how hard she did it, at the end she's nothing. It was all for nothing. Bitter.
She knew this a little too late.
The hopes and the trust she put, too many. She ended up crushed.
She finally knew things just not right.

Some easily said she's selfish, some said she's stupid. Even some doubt her.
It's not easy, never a piece of cake. She knew it better than any of you.
She even play the "if there is........, I will......."
Nothing came up. So she said to herself, "Breath. Let go."
To put away precious things and precious ones for her, breaks her hard.
She fell down on her knee, begging herself to keep it all together.
So stop saying anything that you thought you knew about her, because you don't.

She hates changes. She has this anxiety over changes. So when she choose rather to deal with it, go figure the reason behind.
She  already did her best. Or at least that's what she thought.
Oh by the way, she perfectly knew next road might not be an easy one to walk, it's nowhere to be extra smooth. But knowing that she'll be forever in a good hands, she rest her case.