An open letter

Hi guys,

I currently force myself to hold doing anything more stupid than what you've done to me. Tick tock tick tock save your breath from spreading bad rumours. Tick tock tick tock don't waste your energy being fake. I already found everything out.
While you're still safe, I suggest you run. Like my dad always said, cowards know nothing about being brave. They called chicken for a reason. Run as far as possible that I will never find you. Because if I do, you might not be able to handle.

Stay safe. I'm not up to play around anymore. I had it enough.


Regards,
XOXO

Baby, you will not.

If you knew what my ears been catching up on, being scared is the least thing you need to worry about.
If you knew how much I know what you've been talking behind, you'd have an immediate shut down.
If you knew what I can share to the world simply about you, you'd wish you never talk. A word.
You'll try to crack open your memory just to remember exactly every words you ever said.
You don't think that after yapping around about me, you will be just fine, right?
Baby, you will not. It will eventually came back to you.
Every time I write something you'll keep on asking if I was writing about you.
Like, maybe now?
I won't put you in any ease. I don't do speak up but I do write out.
And I've always known as a keeper.
I. Do. Remember. Everything.

15.09.2018

You might not need this as you're doing so great now.

But sometimes life works not as we wanted it to be.

Everything looks easy and better when things just doing ok.

Not until some things fall apart, then comes the hard part

It takes courage and strength to still stand up and smile once things look troubled

It's definitely not easy for you. It's trial for those who said they love you.

Whether they're strong enough to stay or leave.

Today you're doing great.

Look around, a lot of people are rooting for you.

But the wheel might turn, the next second

The world might step on you and break you down.

The world might change side and it's not your side

If that ever happen to you, when nothing seems ok, please read this again.

The truth, there are actually people who love you so much. Me included.

Though it's difficult to stand still and stay by you,

I will still do it. Will never leave, no matter what.

I just wish that time will never come.

If it still insist on coming, you can knock on my door and collect every bits of promise I ever made

Promise that I'll stay, I'll always be there. For you.

No need to rush just to walk up, you might slip and fall

Walk just fine and follow your heart. Like you always do.

I need you more than I need you to always be on top.

You already made me proud since the day you unexpectedly moved my heart.

That, I'm sure 200%.

You’ve done a great job being my happy pills.

I owe you that much.