berhenti. di kamu.

Setiap kali kamu ada

Aku tak bisa hanya diam

Semua rasa lepas bercerita

Sedih..senang..marah

Aku selalu ingin bercerita

Meski tak semua nyatanya tertumpah

Satu yang tertahan tersimpan

"Aku cintanya kamu........."

 

Ini aku yang lambat tersadar

Kamu punya tempat tak terganti

Ini aku yang teramat menyesal

Terlambat mengerti rasa ini apa

Ini aku yang sangat bersalah

Terlalu sibuk bertanya mengapa

Ini aku yang tak bisa memutar kembali waktu

Ini aku yang ingin berteriak perlahan

"Hatiku berhenti di kamu......"

 

Berharap kamu tak sengaja membaca ini

Berharap kamu akan mengerti

Ada hati yang ingin sekali berbisik

"Kamu adalah kesalahanku yang paling benar.."

my life NOT yours!

I walk my life where I feel comfort
I walk my life based on my choice
I walk my life and the risk is mine
I decide where to go
I decide what to do
I decide whom I trust

But somehow you keep on forgetting
Try to criticize but can't accept any criticism
Try to judge rather than to listen
Criticize my life some other time,
Judge my path some other time,
When you're proper enough to be a good model
When you finally perfect enough to be a good example

It's my life not yours
It's my path not yours
You have nothing to do in my life
Keep that in your shallow mind!!

Am tired.

The long path that I've to get through, I'm successfully tired.

Tired of pleasing people. Tired of succumbing.

Tired of being unselfish. Tired of the surrounding.

There are times when I really want to say, "I'm tired!"

But now, I want to scream it out.

Can I lay a rest, put down everything for a while?

Leaving me a while with my own voice

A little time to please my self.

Leaving me a while with my selfishness

A little time to do what I want

I used to listen to you. But now, you're just soundless.

I just don't care.

Two-Faced

I am out of understanding for you. And definitely sick of you. Give me one good reason why I should keep on understanding you.

YES. You can't!

Unfortunately you can't give me any. Because you're born to have those angelic face, make us thought that we treated you so damn bad. Feel guilty. While inside, you're laughing out loud at how stupid we are.

No matter how hard you put those mask, faking those smile.. slowly, people will sense your stink.

Watch your face. Watch your smile. Watch your step. You might fall. Because eventually you will fall. Two-faced never last long!!

Sunday, August 21 2011

Just a minute ago my reminder went on.. Your birthday reminder that I forgot to turn off forever. Tears suddenly crash my cheek without any of my permission. Yes, I cried. Yes, I still missed.

Happy birthday, dear brother. Glad that you're happy in heaven now. Yet, you're deeply missed. But don't you ever try to come down here, because you're much much much better with Him, who's taking care of you up there.

There still miles to go for me before we meet again one day. Better stick the memory of me in your head. I'm going to kick you if you're forgetting me.

 

:)

Ngimpi

All late chit chat did scratch out the hidden smile

Those are the moment filled with colour

Those are the moment I felt comfort

Never I really ask inside

Never I really figure out what's going on

I let those questions find their own answer

Because I'm way too afraid

Afraid of the unexpected answer

Can you just be the one who convince me?

Just to tell me those are real

Those are exist

You are there, in front of me!

(Tú eres mi búho)

Thank YOU!

Thank YOU

Just a little while longer I wanna pray

Can't get You off my mind so I came to say

Thank You, Lord just for loving me

Many times as I do forget

Every need that You have met

Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me

You are there when I am down and out

You're holding me, Your love is so amazing

Oh it changed me

Chorus:

Here I am with all I am

Raise my hands to worship You

I wanna say thank you, oh thank you

For everything, for who You are

You cover me, You touch my heart

I wanna say thank you

I could have died in my sin but You saved me

Didn't have any hope at all

You gave me peace divine, strength to carry on

I should have been the one to pay

But instead You took my place

My Jesus, words cannot explain

Even though I don't deserve Your love for me

You look beyond my fault and You showed mercy

Chorus ...

I wanna say thank you for the sun

I wanna say thank you for the rain

Everything You do is beautiful

I'm so grateful for Your love

(Video courtesy : YouTube)