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Showing off so hard to others that you're happy, only means that you need others acknowledgement about your happiness. You're not actually happy.

scratch

It's no one night decision

It's bugging me for ages

Keep banging on my door

I don't do drama

and I don't need one

when I just need you to be right here

I need to make it out as words

I need you, this last time, to simply listen

For whatever the end, happiness or sadness

I know I'll stay intact

Go on make me cry, soon I'll be aright

Go on break me, soon I'll be okay

Go on kick out your best no, soon I'll be simply fine

Just let me come forward, come all clean

thank you, little heart...

Little heart, please stay one

Don't break now

Don't give up today

I know you work so hard

Just to make it still

Keeping it a piece

You did brave

You've done great

Keep on breaking was never easy

And the way you stand until today,

you're strong

Just one more breaking,

and you're done

You've been through a lot worse

If it's better to cry it out, do it

If it's better to step aside, do it

If it's better to be alone, do it

Promise me, you'll stand and finally smile

No scar can bring you down too long

Little heart, thank you for the big strength

Thank you for every piece of smile

Thank you for not giving up every time you break

Thank you for being stronger than the owner, me.

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There's nothing I could do to you

to make you believe, to make you see

to let you know what you mean to me

I am just too late.

Can't breathe every time I remember

I made you go far away, forever

I let you down

The unspoken words was everything that left

without a gut

If only I could turn it all around

I would be telling you

You're the one thing that I want

You've been busy keeping me together

not letting me fall apart

You've been wiping off my tears

Sticking me only with laughs

I know I got it right when I let you inside

And I was stupid when I let you go

every time

Never reckon the burden inside

But standing a minute in front of you

simply enough to denude me

enough to hit me

I've been keeping too deep

I've been keeping for only me

 

No matter how hard the world

It will always between me and you

What matter for me is you

When the world punch me in the face

You're there beside me then I’ll be fine

When the world talks about how bad I am

You don’t need to hear any because you see every

When the world kicks me out

I don’t care, it’s not my home

You're my place to go home, every time

 

Remind me each of these, every time.

I only have You.

I used to laugh when people talk about it

Easily run off from it

But when I tell You, I'm out of strength.

I lean my head, put the remaining me

I gave up in front of You

And I cry. And I stop. And I cry. And I stop.

I tell You because I have no other place

I have no one to share

I only got You to be my grip

You're my trust

You're the only one who knew me

You know I'm tired

Freakingly exhausted

Laughing and breaking at the same time

You know I did try.

You know, I only have You.

out of words

My words used to be covered inside

I shield every of it

Let people think thousands of thoughts

My words never got out bluntly

I keep it unnoticed

Let people assume anything

But I start losing my coolness

The idea of you not knowing any, kill me

The idea of me not saying it bluntly, drain me

I don’t know will you ever know

Will you ever notice.

Suddenly, I’m out of ideas to simply express

The supposed-to-be-most-important moment to make it blunt, I'm outta words.