every time

Never reckon the burden inside

But standing a minute in front of you

simply enough to denude me

enough to hit me

I've been keeping too deep

I've been keeping for only me

 

No matter how hard the world

It will always between me and you

What matter for me is you

When the world punch me in the face

You're there beside me then I’ll be fine

When the world talks about how bad I am

You don’t need to hear any because you see every

When the world kicks me out

I don’t care, it’s not my home

You're my place to go home, every time

 

Remind me each of these, every time.

I only have You.

I used to laugh when people talk about it

Easily run off from it

But when I tell You, I'm out of strength.

I lean my head, put the remaining me

I gave up in front of You

And I cry. And I stop. And I cry. And I stop.

I tell You because I have no other place

I have no one to share

I only got You to be my grip

You're my trust

You're the only one who knew me

You know I'm tired

Freakingly exhausted

Laughing and breaking at the same time

You know I did try.

You know, I only have You.

out of words

My words used to be covered inside

I shield every of it

Let people think thousands of thoughts

My words never got out bluntly

I keep it unnoticed

Let people assume anything

But I start losing my coolness

The idea of you not knowing any, kill me

The idea of me not saying it bluntly, drain me

I don’t know will you ever know

Will you ever notice.

Suddenly, I’m out of ideas to simply express

The supposed-to-be-most-important moment to make it blunt, I'm outta words.

for you....

Dear you,

You never expect things to be too far

Never expect you're going to be stupid

But don't you dare blame your feelings

You're the controller

For whatever the mistake you made,

blame yourself.

Fix yourself

But don’t get drown

You're the controller, you're the fixer

Your heart's way too beautiful to get stupid

You said he wouldn't do such things

You said he wouldn't dare to hurt you

Keep this in your head,

if he's kind, he wouldn't be stupidly selfish

if he's smart, he wouldn't use his feeling over his head

if he's absolutely normal, he wouldn't torture you like now

if he's gentle, he wouldn't come and go every time he want to

You might follow your feeling, but don't forget to bring your mind along

You'll be fine. I know you will.

One

ONE promise

ONE that I don't want to mess

ONE that I tend to kept

The ONE day I decide to do it,

I blew it, perfectly

While I fight with my mind,

there you are.

My every question of how

answered in that ONE moment

But it's just too late

I got shocked

Lost my magical words

Dilated eyes and wide open mouth

While my heart was screaming out loud

My shocked just took away my ONE chance

Loosing words blew away my ONE chance

I said nothing, not even ONE word.

I can only watch you walk away.

And I regret it for the rest of the day.

Oh, crap!

MMG's tale!!

Once upon a time there was this bunch of human being. They were in some kind of friendship business. It started because of nothing really important. Simple reason. Same gadget. So, you can say that they're hooked by technology. It's growing from four to six. their silly-sometimes-went-out-so-crazy mind connected so easy. From serious thoughts up to stupid freaky jokes. They shared their tears, angers, and laughs. They share lots. They're not the same. Even too far away from identical, I said. But the differences was the one that hooked them together.

logika nya rasa.. rasa nya logika..

sejauh mata memandang

kamu biasanya bukan siapa-siapa

aku tidak akan biarkan kamu seenaknya bertahta

aku tak ingin lagi ada luka

aku sendiri yang akan menjaga

meski seisi jagat rasa harus berdebat dengan logika yang tersisa

 

sejauh logika berkata

kamu terbiasa jadi bayangan

tak ingin jadi nyata

kamu ada tapi tak ingin terlihat

aku habis cara buat kamu percaya

rasa tak cukup berguna jika hanya terdiam

 

sejauh rasa ingin mengakui

kamu tampak terlalu dekat untuk diingkari

nyatanya kamu lah pengganggu hati

aku bertahan tapi ingin berhenti

seolah tak peduli aku mungkin tersakiti

logika menyerah terinjak rasa

logika mendadak kalah