Dear ignorance, I'll introduce you to karma.

Dear ignorance,
I take you sincerely as the destiny that somehow, I just have to walk through. If I am stupid enough, I will keep on trying to erase you or believing that you're just a dream. Yet, I would wake up and realized that it's not a dream, it's real. I would start blaming myself for you.Over and over and over. Until finally, I felt so loathe and whacked. And still, you're there. Ignorance.

But if I am smart, which I know I am, I will just pass you by and go on with my life. Because my life is overly precious to got stuck and waste in one silly ignorance. But in return, I'll introduce you to karma. I'll let karma show itself to you. Because unfortunately, I don't do dirty job. I prefer to do the elegant one, walk away. Hopefully you enjoy the bitter taste of karma. Eventually, you'll know how I felt.

Sincerely,
Me.

aku, kamu, rasa

rindu yang menggunung kini terserak jadi debu yang saling menjauh tak terkendali ketika kamu memilih bertekuk lutut padanya bukan berjalan menghampiriku yang dibayangi sedemikian banyak tanya. tahukah kamu ribuan detik yang tak aku pedulikan selama menunggumu? tahukah kamu banyak nya "mustahil" yang aku abaikan ketika aku lebih memilihmu? tahukah kamu berapa kali sudah aku lewati perang antara otak dan hati? kamu tahu dan kamu tetap memilih selain aku.

kamu adalah rasa yang diperjuangkan hati ketika berdebat dengan akal sehat. kamu begitu kuat hingga akal sehat cuma bisa mengaku kalah. membiarkan hati menikmati rasa. bahkan ikut memapah hati ketika rasa melemah. tapi ketika diperjuangkan sendiri, rasa tak berguna. rasa tidak lebih dari sia-sia. rasa butuh kamu untuk ada. kamu tahu rasa itu ada tapi kamu memilih diam.

seandainya bukan diam yang kamu pilih, rasa tak akan sesesak ini. lagi, aku salah menitipkan rasa lagi. aku tak sanggup menatap rasa yang terduduk diam. rasa yang bertubi-tubi dihunus diam akhirnya melelah. rasa, lelah percaya. rasa, lelah memungut setiap debu yang terserak.

demikian juga aku, lelah.

cry last one

Wishing all my feelings was gone

Nothing for me to do
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time

I'm down to my last cry
I was here
You were there
we never could agree
Wishing all my feelings was gone
Gotta get over you

One last cry
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on

 
Note : Part of Brian McKnight's One Last Cry lyric

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People are often unreasonable and self-centered.

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives.

Be kind anyway.

If you are honest, people may cheat you.

Be honest anyway.

If you find happiness, people may be jealous.

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow.

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough.

Give your best anyway.

For you see, in the end, it is between you and God.

It was never between you and them anyway.

 

-Mother Teresa-

 

 

Ps : taken from www.goodreads.com

Need you now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor

Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now

 

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now

 

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now

I just need you now

Ooo, baby, I need you now

Music.

She is not a great pianist

Because she hates reading all the jumpy notes in the music partitur

Nor a talented singer

Because she'll definitely faint in front of the crowd

She's just......

someone who love music!

 

It lets her sing and dance along, alone in the room

Not worrying people's attention

It sedates her ups and downs mood

Because somehow, it has its own way

to make her smile when she cry

to calm her when she got the temper.

It helps her kick out all the madness inside

Just turn it out loud and she'll satisified enough.

It pumps up her writing mood

One word of the lyric can easily lead her to something.

 

Tears or laughs..

Sad or mad or even happy.

It accompanies her

whenever..wherever..whatever..

that's why...

she just love music

PERIOD

You said..You said..You're just a tale!

You said, you love me

You said, you won't hurt me

You said, you'll protect me

You said, you'll never let anyone snub me

It's just your sweet words

It's just your love brag

It end up only as your fairy tale

When they did snub me

Not once, but repeatedly

And each time, you just stand there

It's showing that you can't protect me

It's proving that you actually can hurt me

It's you letting me know that actually, you don't love me

 

PS : dedicated for.........

I miss it!

Everytime I look in to your eyes, I felt your happiness.

I want to feel what you feel.Again.

It's not jealousy.Nor envy.It's missing.

I miss those feeling.I miss having those butterfly.I miss all of it.

But when I remember the hurt it could cost, I start to re-think

The more I want it, the more I fear it.

The more I fear anybody could hurt me again.Worse or not, it still a hurt

I could easily fall.But never that easy when it comes to get up.

 

fragile

Did you know?
When I laugh out loud ..Inside, I was holding my tears from falling down
Did you know?
When I keep on talking..Inside, I was putting my last energy just to convince you
Did you know?
When I said that I’m fine, I was breaking into pieces
Did you know?
When I said that I’m happy, I was crying so hard
Did you know?
When I said that I’ll be okay, I was asking you to hold me tight
Because I have no more power to even hold myself
I’m breaking down..tearing apart..crumbling hard
But I do it all inside, so nobody really know
I thought that I was strong, but I am wrong
I am weak and I am in a total down.

Untitled

" Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind.
'Pooh?' he whispered.
'Yes, Piglet?'
'Nothing,' said Piglet, taking Pooh's hand.
'I just wanted to be sure of you.' "

A.A. Milne (Winnie-the-Pooh)